Many of my clients today are in relationship flux. Many are making the decision to leave relationships that they simply have outgrown and feel tremedously guilty about.  It takes tremendous courage to choose your-Self, to do what is right because others may be hurt by your actions. Following your own heart is the only path to true Love and true happiness.

When I was single, this poem really helped me understand the nuances of soul mates and relationships.  I hope this can help you understand your own journey better. Remember that love is an energy that exists all around us and inside of us. We have to love ourselves before we can truly love someone else. At the ripe age of 40, I am happy to have finally completed this part of the journey and was married two weeks ago to a love-ly Soul man.  He was worth the wait and the struggle.   If I can do it, you can do too.  To your success and happiness, read on:

After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul

And you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning

And company doesn’t mean security

And you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts

And presents aren’t promises

And you being to accept your defeats

With your head up and your eyes open

With the grace of a woman

Not the grief of a child

And you learn to build all your roads

On today, because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans, and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight

After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much

So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul

Instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers

And you learn that you really can endure, that you really are strong, and your really do have worth

And you learn and learn and learn with every goodbye you learn

….. And, with every goodbye there will be a new hello

The sun will rise again

And a new day is born to begin again

In April, Maya Angelou was interviewed by Oprah on her 70+ birthday. Oprah asked her what she thought of growing older. And, there on television, she said it was ‘exciting.’ Regarding body changes, she said there were many, occurring every day…like her breasts. They seem to be in a race to see which will reach her waist, first. 

The audience laughed so hard they cried. She is such a simple and honest woman, with so much wisdom in her words! 

 ‘I’ve learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow.’

We live what we learn. We learn what we live.  Teach someone one thing you have learned so that they do not make the same mistakes you do.  Learn one new thing from someone else to lighten your journey.  Make your life a life of learning. If you’re not learning, your dying. Maintain a beginner’s mind to all things.  Anticipate new experiences in all things. Grow and expand your mind, body and spirit.

Wishing all of you the best of Xmas and a lot of learning in 2010 and always! 

Happy Holidays!

Jennifer

I recently found a file of old email “love letters” I wrote to a young male friend several years ago who was about to climb Mount Everest that I nicknamed “Peter Pan”.  He and I were never romantic let alone even held hands.  We had a brief strange intoxicating friendship that was dramatic, karmic and explosive.  It ended as fast as it started, not very civilly I might add.  However, when I was around his energy, creativity exploded within me; words flowed out of me. In a way, he was like a muse to me.  I have never since had that experience so I saved the letters. For whatever reason I am compelled to share them.  I now choose to take a “risk” and share my words of pleasure and pain with you.  Peter Pan and Wendy have not spoken again.  Since we last met, Peter Pan has climbed Mt. Everest 3 times and Wendy left Neverland to following her dream and finish her purpose. 

So many of us are looking for love, we must start to BE love. We must first look within ourselves, look inward and adore the diamond light within.

For your reading pleasure:

Time has not been a friend to me.  In the last few months I have met people either too early or too late.  Time and destiny are interwined for they travel as companions on the same road bring people together and tearing them apart when the lessons and tests are over.  I have not been impressed by this thing called Fate.  Without knowing, without conscious awareness the “fated” travel the journey called Life up and over mountains of challenges, across deserts of emotional turmoil and swimming across waters of loving bliss.  Walking alone on my road full of hope and desire I meet those destined to be my teachers.  Family, friend, lover, foe, they all play out different roles for my learning pleasure.  Pleasure. What is this? The bliss of my unrealized dreams. To have, to hold from this day forward isn’t that what they say?  Who will I have? Whose hand will I hold?  Time has not been a friend to me.

Wise Words From The Late George Carlin:

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but
shorter tempers, wider Freeways , but narrower viewpoints. We spend
more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses
and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more
degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts,
yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too
little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too
tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.

We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values.We talk too
much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We’ve learned how to make a living, but not a life.We’ve added years to
life not life to years.We’ve been all the way to the moon and back, but
have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered
outer space but not inner space. We’ve done larger things, but not
better things.

We’ve cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul.We’ve conquered the
atom, but not our prejudice.We write more, but learn less.We plan more,
but accomplish less.We’ve learned to rush, but not to wait.We build more
computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever,
but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small
character, steep profits and shallow relationships.These are the days of
two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes.These are
days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night
stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to
quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window
and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this
letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this
insight, or to just hit delete…

Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not
going to be around forever.

Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because
that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.

Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the
only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn’t cost a cent.

Remember to say, ‘I love you’ to your partner and your loved ones, but
most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes
from deep inside of you.

Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person
will not be there.

Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the
precious thoughts in your mind.

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the
moments that take our breath away.

“Anything you can say to help yourself or others get the feeling of prosperity is worth the time and effort.”
Catherine Ponder, Dynamic Laws of Prosperity

This is a wonderful reminder from Mary Robinson Reynolds from Make A Difference.com.  It really spoke to me as I am going through some really challenging expansion lessons right now.  I feel confused and depressed.  As I walked from my office to my car today at the end of the day, I wanted to scream out loud and rage against the machine.  Fortunately, a kind stranger met my eyes and smiled.  I smiled back turning my frown upside down.  On the way home, I was stuck in slow traffic.  Perfect ending to my day!  I turned the radio on and heard Kid Rock’s Sweet Home Alabama cover song.  I love it. I remember the original.  I cranked up the radio as loud as it would go.  The music was so loud my car windows were thumping.  I sang, or should I say screamed the song along with Kid Rock as I inched along in traffic.  I didn’t care what people thought of me. I needed to scream. I needed to sing my heartsong.  I needed to feel safe again.  Whenever you are feeling this kind of negative power, let it out as positively as you can.  Shift it immediately.  Create a bridge between here and there.  Somehow create an experience, thought or feeling that can take you one step away from despair or anger or fear towards peace, re-Sourcefulness and safety.  Here is Mary’s story for your divine contemplation:

The other day, I remembered my journey during the stock market crash in 1987 after I had just moved to Portland, OR - a single mother of a 2 year old, on my own. All five of my job interviews had fallen through, and I was just about out of money. The only person that could have helped me was my dad, who had just suffered a huge loss in the crash. Because he was very unhappy with me for not moving back home to live near him, he refused to give me a penny, thinking that the financial straights I was in would force me to move back.

This was the juncture in my life where, because I was jobless, I was able to take time to enjoy my baby and immerse myself in spiritual study. I did not have a TV, because I sold everything to get from Wyoming to Oregon. I was just starting to meet people. It was me, my son and my new, unfolding connection with my inner spirit.

I learned quickly in my spiritual study, to stop talking about what appeared to be a hard financial situation, and to keep my eyes on God as my only source and supply. To simply ask myself, “are my needs met for today?” While my financial resources appeared to be dwindling, I learned how to stay in the present, moment by moment, and pay attention to the new rich ideas starting to come in to my consciousness.

Amazing things began to occur for me during this time period of my life:

I learned about MasterMinding and was brought amazing MasterMind partners to meet with weekly and to keep going forward into a new, wonderful life that was unfolding for me.

My baby and I never went without food, a roof over our heads or gas for my car. I was afforded this time to renew my spirit and expand my understanding of what was possible through putting God first in all of my affairs - over and over and over again - as many times throughout the day as I needed to regain hope, strength and peace of mind.

By the following fall of 1988, through MasterMinding, writing affirmations and praying daily, I received “manna from heaven” to keep me going , plus I had discovered and created a new professional path for myself, and was teaching my very first continuing education course at Portland State University.

I was scared to death of teaching a 20 hour course to my peers. Working with kids was easy compared to preparing to work with experienced teachers about what actually works with youth at-risk.

During this time of preparation for my first course, I was reading The Millionaire from Nazareth, by Catherine Ponder, about the miraculous power of the Lord’s Prayer. She wrote that if you know the Lord’s Prayer, that’s all you need to begin to develop a miracle prayer consciousness - provided you know how to pray it: over and over, slowly with authority, feeling its meaning, calling alive its power, stirring up its miraculous energy.

Apparently, the ancients believed that fifteen was the mystical number that would dissolve hard conditions of the mind, body or affairs.

So, as I faced my debilitating fear about speaking to experienced educators about better ways to teach children, I began to say this prayer over and over - fifteen times - each time I’d sit down to work on the curriculum I was developing.

I’ll never forget the day I was driving to teach my first adult education class. I was sick to my stomach and my hands were shaking on the steering wheel. I began to pray the Lord’s Prayer … fifteen times.

By the time I arrived at the college campus, I had an all-encompassing warm sense of peace throughout my entire being. The people that showed up for my class were literally a God’s send! They were easy and wonderful to work with as I learned how to deliver information that would totally change how they had treated - and thought about - challenging children up to that point.

The next five weeks of working with my first group was beyond amazing, and success was enjoyed by everyone in the class.

Over these past 20 years, both my husband and I have found it is easy to lapse into parroting the Lord’s Prayer. Because of this, we have created a modern interpretation of the Lord’s Prayer that we feel offers meaning - that helps us remain conscious, uplift our spirit and renew our mind and body. We made this movie for ourselves and for everyone who is drawn to our work.

The Lord’s Prayer is one of the greatest series of success formulas ever offered mankind!
It is the Father’s good pleasure to give you the kingdom.
Seek ye first the kingdom of Heaven
… is this prayer’s blessing for you.

Please turn on your speakers and make the time to relax into this movie:

www.TheLordsPrayerMovie.com is now available as a Download and as a ScreenSaver. It is perfect for daily personal enjoyment or to show on a big screen for a public event.

In the past few months, I’ve met so many people that I considered “dead” to me.  Most of these individuals represented painful experiences to me.  Every one of these persons has been a profound teacher of mine showing me about who I really am and giving me the opportunity to say no, to expand, to forgive, to be understanding, to be compassionate and ultimately to gain wisdom.  Recently, some of my “teachers” have come back unexpectedly into my life.  I was frankly surprised since I had done my h-OM-ework, stood back, self-reflected, was understanding, forgiving, transmuted and healed the negative and helpless feelings they brought to my attention.  5 such “teachers” have popped back up.  At first, I thought “oh no, here we go again!” Much to my surprise, all of them have come back with new attitudes, more compassion and grace and on more friendly terms of endearment.  While I am a big proponent of change and the possibility that we can all change and have the instrinic knowing that we are all Go(o)d, I realized I had never given my “teachers” the same opportunity for growth and enlightenment.  Shame on me.  I had forgiven them but put them in the box labelled “jerks” or worse.  When I meditated on why all these blasts from the pasts had suddenly popped back up, I realized for some it was to give them an opportunity to apologize and explain themselves to me (things of course I wanted to hear from them from the get go). For others, it was to show me that these “jerks” had changed and that everyone, including the “jerks” can change for the better.  More importantly, it was to show ME that I had changed.  My buddy Pete Bernard reminds me “people have to earn the right to be in your life and have to continue to do so on a daily basis.”  I agree, in theory at least.  There is a saying that goes, ” fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me.”   When trust is broken, it can take time and effort to repair.  Is it possible? Yes, absolutely.  Luckily, after our “teachers” appear in our lives and our lessons have been learned, we are different people in the now.  We have better tools, more experience and a wiser inner compass to direct us the right way.    You have changed as a result of the experience.  If y(our) “teachers” reappear in y(our) life, it would be an excellent opportunity to see if you apply y(our) learning, if the lessons learned have been integrated in who you are today.  How will you handle this situation again? It’s kind of like a cosmic do-over.   “Warriors act. Fools re-act.”  What will you do now? Which will you choose?  Are you a warrior or are you a fool? 

There is a reiki story that goes something like this:

I walk down a road. I fall into a hole. I am stuck.  The next day, I walk down the same hole. I fall into the same hole. I am stuck again.  The next day, I walk down the same road. I look at the hole. I walk around it. The next day, I walk down a new road.

My “teachers” have usually been people I have known before in past lives.  Perhaps this is why the pain is so profound and the wounds can feel so deep. Most, if not all, people who are in your life, that are more than an acquaintance are people you’ve known before.  Y(our) “teachers” are people whom you have loved before deeply and who have loved you too.  It is those souls who love you enough to play the bad guy role in your play called Life to teach you the hard lessons for your Soul’s growth.   They loved you enough to hurt you and risk you hating them.  A great book on this subject is a children’s picture book by Neale Donald Walsch called “The Little Soul and The Sun.” I highly recommend it to anyone who is having a hard time time forgiving someone or who is trying to understand why someone they love has hurt them deeply.   Read it and let me know how you like it - you will.

For those of you who are need to forgive someone or forgive your-Self, here is a prayer that was channelled by Kryon:

I forgive my-Self.  I forgive you. I forgive him. I forgive her. I forgive them. I forgive the others. I forgive the universe for letting this happen to me. I completely forgive and this is so. For it is in forgiving that we are forgiven, it is in loving that we are loved and it is in understanding that we are understood. Let it be so now.

If ghosts from your past pop back up in your life, smile and say “hello, Friend, nice to see you again.”  The rules of engagement have changed. You have changed and, most likely so have they.  You have new tools in your tool kit.  Use them in an energy of love and compassion.  Use them on your-Self first.  Should you wish, allow your “Friends” the opportunity to earn the right to be back in your life.  Actions speak louder than words.  Remember, “warriors act. Fool re-act.” Decide which one you are today. If you choose not to, and it is always your choice who is in your life and what kind of experiences you are having, be at peace, be at peace, be at peace.  Through your “teachers” lessons and your Soul’s growth, you have become your own true best friend and your best re-Source. The power is y(ours)!

Today is a happy day for me. I get to start all over and do things new. Every year it’s an opportunity for me to really understand who I AM and why I AM Here. Many of you know I spend a lot of my time in the future, in your future. Therefore, living in the now is sometimes difficult for me, for I can “see” what I “see.” A gift and a curse, especially regarding relationships. Because I can “see” the potential for a person or a situation, I tend to drag them along…kicking and screaming…to that end. This is wrong. I know. Free will. We each have it, to use as we see fit, right or wrong, good or bad. Choices are just directions for growth and experience. The good news is the road always goes back Home. Even if you make a wrong turn (or several!) saying” I love you” and “please forgive me” can make things right again. I en-courage you to say them often and say them out loud. Just because you know or feel something doesn’t mean the other person does. Let them know. Don’t make them guess. Even us psychics need to hear the words coming from your mouth and feel your sincerity. Have courage of heart. This is why we came Here. To grow, to learn, to make mistakes, to gain wisdom about ourselves and others and develop personal honor and integrity. We have not come here to take prisoners.

Read Rumi’s words:

We have not come here to take prisoners
But to surrender ever more deeply to freedom and joy
Run my dear,
From anything
That does not strengthen
Your precious budding wings…..

For we have not come here to take prisoners
Or to confine our wondrous Spirits
But to experience even and ever more deeply
Our divine courage, freedom and Light!

I made a huge life changing decision today. It was big. I hope when I look back I see the beauty and the glory in this moment. As with all these big decisions, we have to do it alone…or do we? In the middle of the meeting, we took a break. I walked over to the local coffee shop located in the office building. I ordered my tea and prayed to God that I was doing the right thing. Over the P.A system, ABBA starting singing ” I Believe In Angels.” I hope that was my sign. Time will tell.

My Dad sent this to me today. I dont know who wrote it but it made me laugh and I hope it brings a smile to you too.

1. There are at least two people in this world that you would die for.

2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.

3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just l like you.

4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don’t like you.

5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.

6. You mean the world to someone.

7. You are special and unique.

8. Someone that you don’t even know exists loves you.

9. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.

10. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take another look.

11. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.

12. And always remember..when life hands you lemons, ask for the tequila & salt and call me over!!